thanks to my fren who did a bit of simple maths for me, the harsh reality has hit me hard n strong. with just about 2 n a half sem time more to battle (minus away sep), time is really running out for me to up my cap to my dream cap. no dilly dallying priviledges.
so addicted to the song そばにいるね(soba ni iru ne) and this is the guy version to the song called ここにいるよ(koko ni iru yo). this came out first and later soba ni iru ne as the response song by the girl. aww romantic.
i'm a sucker. the week is coming to an end. but my mount of work is still there cos i got distracted along the way. and distracted by what? by dramas. pathetic me. arghhh i'm turning into an otaku :((( stuck between my fantasy and what is real, i chose to wander off to the fictional land of dramas cos reality is just soooo not exciting. n i feel the plasticness of my life. so fake. exciting things always in the far away land.
oh man... thanks to this stupid taiwanese idol drama that i'm addicted to i found out about this song: そばにいるね by 青山テルマ. aww in love with it. listen to its melody on the keyboard. hope i can play this piece somehow....
playing ballad is really the bane of my life... impossible to play let alone sing along as i play. since its introduction into class, my grades have just been dropping all the way. n wat's more the fill-ins to do. plus the transition to other rhythm becomes so awkward and i'll lag. n all the inversions messed up. arghhhh bane of my life!
tonnes to read and tonnes to do. a multitude of deadlines.
feel like singing:
just caught the volunteer show on channel u. this celeb went to mongolia for a summer camp. arghhh i really miss workcamps! :((
having friends who are low around you allow one to think and reflect as well. and i come to a conclusion for the learning lesson this time round: it's just soooo important for one to spend time with oneself and to study and understand yourself.
the recess week has began for me but looking at my schedule ahead it seems to me tough times are just ahead lol. the coming month of october will be a hell for me. this sem really seems to bring alot more work than before. why the sudden surge in workload i wonder?
led worship at cell for the second time. thankfully somehow as i started, all the butterflies in my stomach just disappeared. and i think it really helped a lot that i have been listening to the songs i had chosen like OVER AND OVER again the entire close to 3 hours before cell and quite often throughout the week as well. argh. fortunately, i really love those songs, so it didn't stress out my ears all that much.
i think i'm gettin violent these days (no no not in the sense that i wack ppl or break thgs). think i need anger management. when i get angry, i get sooooo angry and nothing can appease me. this is bad. n it doesnt even matter if i understood the reason or that i am unreasonable. nothing appease me.
I don't know since when that i become so called more dao and less incline in making new friends. ok don't get it wrong. i am pretty sociable a person but just that the common feedback i get is that if it's the 1st few times u see me and we don't get to share much interaction, most likely u'll get the impression that i am a pretty fearsome creature. haha strange.