the uphill battle

it has come. yet another season of pruning in my life. it's just really how amazing all things fits tgt. i begin to realise that the reason for my "desert wandering" is not simply just i am not prepared for the challenges ahead (not realising the full magnitude of things) but also cos i really have yet to learn about love myself.

cell today was really amazing in a way cos God once again affirms his message to me. i realised He really always work this way with me. He really knows me full well that i need repetitive messages to get his message and be affirmed. So now i know, I really need to work more actively for the restoration of my family. For years, i have walked away without even realising it and now God really has opened up the old wounds to awaken me. I need to actively work for things. I can desire too for a home to go back to and not just a house. But of cos, facing it will hurt, but i already know what will be the outcome of this. He always wins me whenever He wanna prune me.

and today at cell, was also filled with surprises. mixture of good n bad. so our new cell has produced its 1st couple. feel happy for this pair! n on another hand, another person was asked to step down from her role to reexamine her walk. really the benchmark for God is just so high. N really i am both happy n envious of our lovely pair in cell. It's just so hard to find a couple who centres their relationship on God. And it's so amazing from their sharing how our God has worked in their relationship. Man, truly God has many facades that i keep discovering. Today i learned that He is not just a patient God (to me for He has to repeat His words many times to me), but also a romantic God (for bringing my friends tgt).