Washing Machine

I am feeling like a... it's a indescribable feeling... but it reminds me of a washing machine. So yes, I feel like a washing machine!!!!

Everything seem to just snowball tonight. AHHH one thg leads to another n another.

there's barely time to mug, and the notes are piling up so much to read yet so little time. And even this lil bit of time is being threatened to b robbed away if i don't guard it safe. And my campfire seems so screwed up. N i fear man. Don't think i have as much anxiety last time in the midst of projects. Gosh. but this time i just feel so UNPREPARED. though, we have outsource most of the work, i think it gives me this sense of insecurity just co-ordinating cos i really don't know exactly how have they progressed. N we have to monitor closely. Gosh.

And somehow, a part of my brain seems to love giving reminders n flash backs of the past. AH i am afraid of repeating my past mistakes. I am painfully reminded of them. and i become so cautious about guarding my time. And it is really no good cos end up i am stressing myself ever more. And if i am not careful i am back to my self-pity days of lamenting over my life. NO.

ARGH.

'Dear Lord i pray that You'll see us through this campfire. Please Lord. And please empower me with the strength to face the challenges of the coming week.'